raymond.

raymond when he went for prayer meet.

raymond when he showed cassandra to the world.

raymond when he quietly watched. 
   

raymond when he quietly listened.

my last photo of raymond.

raymond, the first time he noticed my phone.

you know,

not enough photos were taken,

because we spent so little time together.

but now i appreciate the candid shots i took of people,

and i’m glad i didn’t respect their privacy very much.

“raymond just passed away”

four words hard enough to stun.

in times like this, why, Lord, 

 comes easier than yes, Lord.

raymond see.

i didn’t get to eat the asam pedas for you.

but you know that i’ll clear my debt someday.

our big party in heaven will come.

then i will eat asam pedas for you.

brother,

we don’t say goodbye.

you know what.

in a moment of sadness in the evening, 

i had this sudden thought:

we’re all crying here on earth, 

and he’s probably looking down from his mansion, 

and asking why.